Beelz

Diablo 3 comes out in... let me see... 1:39:20. I posted for Diablo'ers to have fun, with a sigh preceding it. It wasn't exasperation, it was more aimed towards the fact that guys make fun of gals for excitement about things such as Harry Potter and the Twilight saga. While I understand that there's a difference between the third installment of a top-selling video game and awaiting the release of Harry Potter 7.2, you just have to recognize that everyone has different taste. And taste in an emotionless vampire-human-werewolf love triangle is better than no taste at all.

I think.

I played Diablo 2 a couple times. It was always runrunrun (or squishsquishsquish... it was usually raining) stabstab loot. Crap, inventory full. Sellsell runrun (squishsquish) pickupleftbehindloot, sell, repeat.

Maybe I was playing wrong.

1:29:15

My vacation was supposed to end today, but I had a funeral to go to so I took the night off. I was hesitant to, since it was my first day back, but I stepped into the shoes of those closest to the deceased, and realized I should attend. In other words, when a semi-distant relative dies, their kids, parents, whatever appreciate seeing you show up.

It bothers me that I only see my family at functions such as these. There are fewer holiday get togethers (Mothers Day, Easter, etc.) and I can only give the simplified greetings and rundowns of my life to those I used to spend significantly more time with. And one by one, they're leaving. I don't want to admit this, but there were at least 3 close relatives I saw today that I know I have limited time with, given the rate we see each other now.

Change of subject.

1:08:50

Alright, to end, I'll add a video. I really like this song. The only way it's related to my post is the name. In translation, anyway.

P.S. Got the new ink I wanted! It was, as usual, a spur-of-the-moment thing. But I quite like it.

Etceteranough

Hello again. Miss me? No? Well hey I didn't even notice your absence, so suck it.

I really want to get back into something that makes me more of an individual. Writing... art... stripping... Wait I never did that.

Yeah. Odd mood tonight. Try to keep up. If you make it to the end, and forward it to 873 people, and do a hand stand while reciting the Greek alphabet backwards, you'll get a surprise.

Anyway... getting back into something would make me feel more self-worth. My strong suit was music, so I've considered joining the community band. But that'd require purchasing an instrument.

Started re-watching Smallville. And Buffy. Buffy I've seen all of, Smallville I haven't seen the last season. I forgot how much I love John Glover as Lex Luthor's father. I know the actor is gay but I'd still do him. Yes that's right. When you're a slave to my writings you're going to occasionally come across a juicy piece of TMI.

Alright, time for some less cheeky material.

Sit with me a while and let me listen to you talk about

Your dreams and your obsessions, I'll be quiet and confessional.

The violets explode inside me when I meet your eyes,

Then I'm spinning and I'm diving like a cloud of starlings...

....Darling is this love?

Some of my favorite lyrics of all time.

I came up with an idea for my nonexistent internet radio station. Have themed playlists. I already have one going, just for kicks and grins. An hour's worth of listening.

My vacation starts at the halfway point of this coming weekend. Saturday at midnight I will belong to no one's employ for the next 8 days. Plans? Clean house... relax... spend time with child... spend an evening with me mum at a comedy club after dinner somewhere and the like... and an evening of late birthday shindiggery that includes movie/dinner/drinks to wrap up my week of freedom.

More lyrics to close this post... A great song, and I woke up singing this line just the other morning.

"Have you heard? It was on the news.

You can make your peace on the dark side of the moon."

Inky Tunes

So, finally decided on where to place my next body ink. I've had the art picked out for quite a while, just couldn't decide where to put it (my back seems to be my go-to, but it already has three). Decided on my right forearm. Would have chosen my left, but it has... blemishes. Now, just need to see if a tattoo artist can doctor up the design I've chosen a bit.

I look forward to it.

(Once I can afford it.)

Been wanting to add Reggae and Hawaiian music to my collection. Just don't know many artists. I have 4 Bob Marley songs, and the only Hawaiian song I have is Somewhere Under the Rainbow/What A Wonderful World by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole, which is an outstanding song. Just never, ever ask me to pronounce his last name.

I like when music artists have side projects. Such as Pinkly Smooth, which is branched off from a couple members of Avenged Sevenfold. But I must say I like Them Crooked Vultures much more, which consists of Dave Grohl (lead singer of Foo Fighters) on drums, Josh Homme (mmm yummy) on vocals, who is the lead singer of Queens of the Stone Age, which is one of my all time favorite bands, and John Paul Jones - formerly of Led Zeppelin - on bass (and piano, and etc.) Check 'em out.

We Won't Run

Speed metal after a not so good day. Devildriver and Static-X. Hmm, I should add Cannibal Corpse to my collection. And of course Fear Factory is a favorite... I have 109 of their songs, 8 albums. Got into them when I heard "Invisible Wounds (The Suture Mix)" - and loved it - on the Resident Evil soundtrack. Although Fear Factory is sometimes angry, sometimes more mechanical/techno.

I'm being plagued by the same issues I had at my past place of employment. Workers being treated unfairly by our superiors... being wrote up for irrelevant things, being denied raises... and still being expected to give perfect scores on our bosses' surveys so they're sure to receive their own raises. The only praise and notice we get anymore is from our co-workers, never from higher ups. The department I work in is known to be the "friendliest, most customer-friendly group of workers in the hospital." Yet we're constantly being chastised for meaningless things and have quite an employee turnover, due to frustration and unfairness. Someone said tonight, and I agree... "our bosses don't realize how bad all these write-ups and employee turnovers make them look."

Gaah.

Sorry.

Tonight was going to be a lay-off-the-rum night. I decided to reschedule.

It is now March, and the weather is warming up a bit. I find myself doing something I know I've done before, and now understand it to be a feel-good thing that I do... When I'm driving somewhere, I roll the window down to feel the fresh air, and play "Float On" by Modest Mouse. Float On has been one of my all-time favorite songs ever since I first heard it... I loved the guitar riffs (still do)... and it apparently either is played when I'm in a lightened mood, or when I need my mood lightened.

Saved by music once again.

(Title of this entry is another song I'm into at the moment.)

Just To Share

I love Alfred Molina. In some roles more than others, such as Doc Ock in Spider-Man 2 and Horvath in The Sorcerer's Apprentice. Used to watch Spider-Man 2 all the time, especially the bloopers and easter eggs (hidden behind-the-scenes bits). During that time I learned he was doing the Broadway production of Fiddler on the Roof. Really wish I could have seen it. Anywho, I found some pics of him as Tevye.

Also, I found the short hidden scene where "after an intense day of filming green-screen footage, Alfred Molina takes a moment in between takes to lighten the mood." It's great how the people controlling the additional appendages keep the beat, too.

Better... Kinda

Had a rough past couple days. Today seems better. I know it won't last, but at least it's a break from the sleeplessness, anxiety, and being on the verge of falling apart.

Something that probably helps is hopefully being closer to having answers to a health issue I've been having. Had an appointment yesterday (of course the issue subsides the day of the appointment and I show no signs of being defective) and now waiting on the results, along with an additional appointment next week.

Yesterday was so bad... It honestly took everything I had to pick myself up (twice) and go to work. And half an hour into my shift I was beginning to fall apart, which thankfully got interrupted by a work-related errand. (Weird, I know... being paged helped? Crazy. Guess the distraction you need sometimes comes from the unexpected.)

"Man can live about forty days without food, about three days without water, about eight minutes without air, but only for one second without hope."

Sometimes I wonder how I'm still alive.

Awake

So maybe changing my ringtone to the quite loud, quite forceful "WHOOOOAAAA" from the Beastie Boys' "Sabotage" song isn't such a good idea. If someone calls while you're dozing, you're more than likely jolted awake with a unintentionally similar shout.

It's after 6am. My sleeplessness and restlessness has been getting the better of me lately.

Something truly crappy: returning to work after 5 days off and feeling like you haven't even left. No feeling refreshed, recharged, nothing. Just the same old "go do this and fall behind on your schedule" as soon as the shift starts.

As far as writing goes... I've considered another approach. Putting myself into a character completely different. Like creating stories or adventures for a fantasy character I play in a game. Only thing is, I doubt I know enough about her race or her world to write accurately. May try anyway.