More Please

I'm listening to my child's Speech Therapy session. The therapist is rea-HEALLY pissing him off today. Keeps taking away his sippy cup, trying to get him to say or signal "more please." Instead of saying "bad idea lady" I'm keeping my mouth shut. (She's new.)

Got a job a few months ago, at the hospital here. It's alright. I don't really like the hours, but they seems to work best with our family schedule. And the paycheck is extremely nice to have. My first full-time job, other than the girl scout camp counselor job I did the summer I graduated.

I'm also taking one class that is in session 2 mornings a week. I'm in pursuit of a Surgical Tech certificate. However, I have recently been told that after working a year at the hospital, I can transfer out to other departments, and people have been transferring to be Surg Techs without any training. Kinda makes this schooling seem pointless. I'm not saying that furthering my education is pointless, just that taking classes for something that is hiring untrained people seems a bit useless. Maybe it'll help my chances of successfully transferring.

The weather is finally warming up. As it does every year, it seemed to have a difficult time making up its mind at first. A warm day, then three cold, then two more warm, a warm rainy day, the next day it would freeze...

I miss having friends. I'm very glad to have someone at home to talk to and spend time with, and I don't know what I'd do without him. But it would still be nice to have an outside friend or group of friends to do things with. And since I'm either working, sleeping, or catching up on cleaning at home, I'll probably continue to be without.

Not really anything else to tell, so guess this entry will end on a depressing note. Sorry.

December Begins, School Ends

I'm currently watching the anime Lupin the Third. I've been told that it's a horrible anime, but it's the only one I've ever watched. Back in my early high school days, I believe it was on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim. Yes, bad taste is apparently my nature, according to some people. I call it being eclectic.

Finals are upon me at school. I have finished my online class, ending with a C. That works. My fourth and last essay for English class is due tomorrow. As usual, I don't think I did very well. However, the lowest grade I have gotten for an essay is a 90%. Maybe I'll get lucky again.

My favorite cuisine, Mongolian bbq, used to be a rare thing for me, since there isn't a local restaurant that serves it. But a couple weeks ago I tried making it here at home, and it turned out quite well, so it's more of a regular thing now. Stir fry noodles, bell peppers, onions, oyster sauce, teriyaki sauce, baby corn, scallions, chicken... Yum. And easy to make.

Christmas is less than a month away. We haven't done anything yet, other than talk about what to get our little one. I guess our Christmas tree will only be up a few days right around the 25th since he'll likely be knocking it over repeatedly.

Yesterday was the last day of November and the first day of snow for around here. It was quite cold, but the snow was very minute, and it didn't stick. I don't mean to sound disappointed. Snow around here can be kinda treacherous, at least when it comes to travel. There's still plenty of winter for the accidents and panicked drivers to thrive.

That is all.

Red

This past weekend, I was supposed to go camping with some people. Those plans got canceled at the last minute, so instead I went to Springfield, ate, saw a movie, and went to a club of sorts that I had never been to.

The movie I saw was Red. (Retired, Extremely Dangerous.) It was awesome. Bruce Willis washis usual suave self, Helen Mirren was great as a trigger-happy ex-CIA agent, and John Malkovich probably had the best part. He was absolutely insane. Hilariously insane, though. Completely paranoid, carrying around a pink stuffed pig, which was later revealed to be hiding a rather large gun. It's something that I must immediately buy as soon as it comes out on dvd.

The previews before the movie looked good. Although I can only remember 2 of them. One is Unstoppable, with Denzel Washington and Chris Pine (Kirk from the new Star Trek) and is about a train. The other was one I had seen before, The Green Hornet. I can't tell if it's going to be any good or not. But it bugs me that I can't remember the other previewed movies.

Oh! And I got to see Conan O'Brien's new commercial on the movie screen! The one where he drives an explosives-packed car over a cliff. I had seen it before, on youtube, but nothing compares to seeing it on the movie screen.

Adieu.

Hare

I think that I have stopped kidding myself that I'm an artist. I may have had a few noteworthy works in my high school days, but not anymore. I try too hard, therefore the results are crap. And sometimes I wait for inspiration to come, and it never arrives.

Mid-term has come and gone. My grades were satisfactory. I guess the hours upon hours of homework and stress paid off. My reward to myself, since there was no interest in celebration, was a couple of hard ciders and a movie at home.

You would think that when your grandmother tells you how proud she is of you for the profession you're training for, you would feel good about yourself. Instead, pessimistic me, I only feel the dread of failure and disappointment when I do something to screw it up. The more pride people have in you, the greater their disappointment.

My Halloween costume sits beside my bed in a heap. I had been looking forward to getting ahold of that particular costume for some time, and now that I have it, I can't help but wonder if I'll have a reason to wear it.

Still Here

Tomorrow begins week 7 of school. I've made it this far. Barely. I have been behind in my Psychology class, which is Human Relations in the Workplace. It's open learning, so it's at my own pace, which is obviously problematic. My own pace is slooow when I have 3 other classes. And next month, October, will be a busy one. A camping trip, a wedding, Halloween... I should be kicking into overdrive to get ahead, but motivation is nowhere to be found.

My computers class is frustrating. The class is 2 days a week. The first day is lectures, and the second is labs and assignments. Yet, none of the labs and assignments have anything to do with the lectures. Then the other day I left my flash drive plugged into the computer I use. It's most likely long gone.

In English class, we had a 100-point, 800-word narrative essay due about a week ago. Right after we handed them in, we started getting lectured on how to do an informative essay. Which will need to be 1,000 words. Oi.

Ah, I mentioned Halloween a bit ago. I bought my costume the other day. Mrs Freddy Krueger. I love it. The hat is rather large, but oh well. My kid's costume is a basic one, nothing special, because it was pretty much the only thing in his size. However, it does suit him.

New Skool

My college days have finally begun. After 5 years of being out of high school. Today was my second day of "classes" and I have tomorrow off. The quotation marks are from my only Monday class, a psychology class, being Open Learning. Meaning, at my own pace, and only seeing the instructor to ask questions. Which, is kind of odd... Human Relations in the Workplace... not taken around people. Hmm.

My online class, medical terminology, seems to be the only one pertaining to what I'm actually going for. And it also happens to be the one I'm currently unprepared for because I didn't receive the textbook(s) needed. A problem that I hope to fix tomorrow.

I held my fear, skepticism, and pessimism at bay for as long as I could. About a day and a half. So now, I'm terrified that I'm not going to cut it. I wasn't expecting computers to be such a contributing factor. And I seem to feel more comfortable in the classrooms. For now, anyway. Maybe that'll change over time.

That's a partial explanation of the downside. The upside is, it's nice having more structure to my day. Get up, take child to the sitter, go to class. Leave, pick child up, go home, make supper, do homework. A couple days, I have about an hour and 45 minutes in between 2 classes. Today I went home for a quick lunch and checked my student account since it had just been activated, but in the future I may go to the gym or exercise room to pass the time. Something I've considered for my spare time since I registered. Take my ipod, get on a bike or stairmaster or treadmill... I wonder if they still make those NordicTrack ski things...

Ta.

Motivation, Such An Aggravation

Hate when I really want to let loose blog-wise, but have nothing to talk about. Same happens with art. I loved art class in high school, the teacher gives you an assignment, whether it be chalk, clay, papier-mâché... Anyway, she would narrow it down, while at the same time giving you options. Such as, she says; we're doing a chalk portrait of a person. You get to choose your subject. I seemed to have the most success with those, because those are what won me art fair ribbons. And now, I just know that I want to create something, I want to be hard at work at what I'm doing... but I guess the motivation is lacking.

Apparently I left my ipod cord at my mom's last time I was there. Which is frustrating. I have acquired music, and then discovered I have no way of transferring it to my ipod. I knew I should've bought a spare one.

I hope to start classes at a community college soon. I know that I should have as soon as I got out of high school, but I had no idea of what to go for at the time. Well, I did, but for me to be successful, it would have required me to go to New York or Los Angeles. Shyeah, like that would have worked out.

And yes, my blog title does consist of song lyrics.

Me thinks mine motivation is spent on keeping the apartment semi-clean, meaning cleaning up after mine child, whom is constantly into everything, and his father, whom is severely lacking in the organizational area. But alas, I have told meself to complain not in this blog entry.

Listening to Dream by the Cranberries, which I know was in The Next Karate Kid (one of my favorites as a kid... Hilary Swank and Michael Ironside... nuff said) but was also in a commercial a while back... but can't remember which. I shall attempt to find out.